Post by Deleted on Mar 1, 2013 8:41:35 GMT -5
There were no words that could explain just how happy, just how complete he felt when he kissed Aito. With each and every single movement of their lips Xayden could feel his cracked heart heal. He could feel his soul heal, and he could feel himself become more and more complete. When he thought about just how much better his life would have been had he spoken to Aito sooner, it made him just a little bit angrier. Had he just spoken to him, would things have been different? Would he have fallen in love with him instead of Matthias? Would he have been saved from all of his pain, all of his heartbreak? Unfortunately he would never know the answer for sure, but as he stood there with Aito, he was positive that the answer would have been yes. Aito was everything that he had dreamed of finding in a partner, and more.
He shivered slightly when their lips parted, and Aito's lips moved to the flesh on his neck, and he felt himself being pulled close so that their bodies were pressed closely together. His hands moved up Aito's body to gently run through his hair.
The emotions that he was going through at that moment were so intense, and so passionate that Xayden couldn't believe it. Every single press of lips against his neck, every single touch that Aito gave him sent tingles down his spine, while making his heart swell with emotion. Did he love Aito? Deep down inside his mind, and his heart he knew that he did. He loved Aito, and yet he was not ready to share his feelings with him yet. Xayden was the type of man that had a habit of falling in love both very hard, and very fast. Love made him blind, and this was something that had caused him to get hurt often in the past.
While he trusted Aito, he was still scared to open his heart up completely to him like that.
When their lips pressed together, and he felt the very tip of his tongue run against his lower lip, he hesitated for a moment before returning the action. Pulling back when he felt the whimper against his lips, his blue eyes stared calmly, serenly into Aito's beautiful black, his body and blood seeming to heat up even farther as he listened to Aito's quiet whisper. His arms wrapped around his waist, pulling him even closer as his chin rested on top of his head for a moment, before lowering to whisper quietly in his ear. "I know exactly how you feel. Being around you is causing me to want you more, and more with each passing moment. It's like you were made specifically to become an addiction of mine. I don't think I'll ever be able to get enough of you in this lifetime or the next, Aito Thresh." His voice was barely above a breathy whisper, and his lips were pressed against the tip of his ear in a kiss.
While he was not ready to tell Aito that he was in love with him, he would gladly show it in the things that he did until the time came when he was ready.